utter randomeness

(Source: andrewthestrange)

  i really hate when people find out about a person cutting.  some people can be so rude about it. and i know theyre just trying to help, but.. gosh.

   when my friend heard that my sister was cutting she told my sister that she would pay for her medicine to get better. i havent told her that i cut too for that reason.  yeah she was tring to help, but to assume that she needs medicine o get better is rude (in my opinion). she just wanted comforting, saying that they need drugs is not comforting.

  my best friends dad found out she cuts. he told her she was gonna send her to a mental hospital when she graduates. i hate that mother-fucking ass hole.. i mean what the hell?! sorry.. but.. grr. i feel like just doing that is saying that, your not even gonna try to help her by yourself, and your just sending her to the hospital so you dont have to deal with it. she’s been through so much shit, and she just wants someone to love her. i wish she lived closer so i could help her more.. give her the love that she needs.

  when i told my parents,my dad asked me if i needed a therapist to talk to. i hate him. haha.. i know he is trying to help but dear lord. you make me feel so.. soo… messed up. thanks dad.

 anyways… there are just some things i feel like you shouldnt say to people who self harm.

  i realize that I’ve already posted my storyish thing, but.. idk.. whatever.

1. How long have you been self-harming? Discuss why you started.

    When i really think about how long I’ve been cutting, it really hasn’t been long. umm.. i don’t really know what time i started, but i think i started around the first of the year maybe.. so not very long ago. I started out of curiosity. I tend to try alot of weird stuff out of curiosity (mainly food related stuff). my sister used to cut, my best friend cuts, and other people i know cut so the whole cutting thing really sparked my interest.  wanted to know why they cut. why it appeals to them. how it feels. so i started, and it just took off from there. i started liking the feeling of cutting. i still do. and i miss it allot. i have stopped though. my family found out, but im always tempted to start again. my life really isnt that bad either…. im gonna stop typing now…. xD

so i reallyreally wanna dye my hair green.. or purple.. hahah.. grrr!!! ;)

dear follower,

     You are my first follower..yay!! (insert uber smiley face here) thank you!

HELLO! yeah i know i have to followers.. haha… so i just thought I’d post cause i haven’t for a while!

The Hunger Games.. DU DU DUUUUUuuuuunnnnnn.. xD

     So here is how i feel about the movie..Dont hate me.. (oh wait.. nobody reads this so it doesnt matter!). I didnt like the movie.. The acting sucked (except Rue’s death), it was too fast paced, the costumes sucked, there was like NO gore, they took out all the funny parts in the book, they left out very important parts, they changed stuff, it was very cheesy, the cave scene was 7 minutes long, ummm and that is all i can think of at the moment! i understand they had a small budget, i do! but grrr!! hahah.. umm.. yeah the gore thing? i LOVE gore. And yeah she wanted all the fans to be able to tolerate it,  but.. GRRR!! its the HUNGER GAMES! its made for gore! the costumes bugged me cause i am a costumer (only a bit.. im still in highschool, but i help with my school’s shows and i plan to be a costumer when i grow up). I realize that the movie isnt gonna be exactly like the book, but in my opinion if your gonna make a movie off a book you should keep with the book as best as you can. i dont care if the movie ends up being like 5 hours long! if anything the movie shouldve been that long! it went by so quickly. anyways.. enough with the hate! there were a few things that i did like about the movie! Haymitch was amazing!! im sad that they took some of his funny lines out though :( i liked how they gave you the Gamemakers point of view!! LOVED IT!! umm.. and i know there was like one other thing but my brain has gone missing… xD

    i would also like to say that im kind of obsessed with the books sooo… yeah.. :D and i plan to see the movie over just to give it another shot!